On the altar

Once again, I have placed my dearest dream on the altar.
Though not without tears, I have unclenched my fingers from around it.
I take a breath
close my eyes
step back

and wait

To the Panto

Today I had my first pantomime experience! I complained enough over the past couple weeks about never having been to one, as we don't have such silly things in America, so Charlotte wheedled me onto the list as supporting one of the students who was going to Cinderella today. Yes, it was silliness, but what fun! The audience has to hiss and boo the bad guys, and there's always scenes where you have to scream at a character "he's behind you!" They had us chanting, "Buttons you fool, someone's sat on your stool!" The British pantomime is definitely a tradition worth bringing to America!

Monday 19 Dec

Hey ... so I really need all your prayers for my audition next Monday. I want this so much, but at the same time I hear Him calling me to lay this dream at His feet. I want to dance- I need to dance- but even more I need His timing. And I need to listen to what He wants, instead of just endlessly asking for Him to give me what I want.

-----but a specific request: I'm supposed to have a solo prepared, and I've been trying and trying to choreograph something, and it's not going well. I've got "All I Can Say" to fall back on, but I just don't think it's good enough for this audition. It's stressing me out, and this should be something I'm looking forward to. I want to go in with a positive attitude. -----

Question: Do you think the Lord would give us what we ask for, if we want it bad enough, even if it's not the best thing for us? From recent experience, I would say yes. (I'm reminded of Brother Andrew's request for a wife.) But I'd like some feedback and thoughts.